DISCOVERING YOUTH AND SEXUALITY
I was nineteen. I spent the weekend at my grandmother's. Tommy, a cousin of mine, was also visiting grandma. Tommy and I used to wrestle all the time in the back yard and we were friends as well as cousins. Since Tommy was small, and grandma didn't have a lot of guest beds, she said Tommy and I could sleep together in one of the twin beds in the bedroom. Grandma and Tommy's mom and dad went out to play Bingo.
Since Tommy and I weren't tired, we decided to watch television in bed. We were both in our white Fruit of the Loom briefs. It was hot, so we had the sheet turned back to the side of the bed. I sort of fell asleep and Tommy was awake watching the t.v. program. Half waking, I turned over and my hand flopped over onto his boy basket as he lay on his back watching t.v. Still not completely awake, I left my hand to rest where it had fallen.
He started to get an erection. Realizing that, I woke up but played as I was asleep. He turned over and started to roll the elastic band of my shorts downward. He unrolled them about a half inch at a time until my erect penis was exposed and slapping against my stomach. He then took off his shorts and lay on top of me erection to erection and then reached down and placed my penis between his legs.
I placed my arms around him and just lay still --enjoying the loving moment that we were having. He started to French kiss me, but I turned my head and kissed him long and tenderly between his neck and shoulder.
We lay there for about five minutes and then I told him we better put back on our shorts before the family came home from Bingo. That was my first experience. I didn't realize I was gay until I was twenty-three. But, I have never forgotten that night of tender and innocent love.